So I spent all day Monday sketching, learning animation, and refining some old projects and after 6 hours of doodling I thought, “All this time and I don’t really have anything to show for it…” Feeling pretty depressed and angry I got in my car for a long drive home.
I’m always working hard and trying to improve my skill set, so I get down on myself when I feel like I haven’t accomplished enough in a day.
“What am I worth? I didn’t even get anything done today.”
“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called children of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 5:3-10
This was my reminder that I am worth more than what I can accomplish, more than what I plan to do, and more than living up to the expectations of those around me.
I had to give up my pride and was just be glad to be alive. As I drove I realized I had accomplished something. I had put in my time, I had figured out some new techniques, and it was worth it because I was practicing my discipline.
Since then I have some more simple animations that I will post, but I am thankful for the opportunity to be doing what I love even if when “I haven’t accomplished anything”